2 Dreams

Here are descriptions of two dreams that linger into waking life....comments welcome.Both have an artistic bent so at the very least, they may entertain.

Hearts within hearts, searching for different colours and textures
I was making a collage of sorts. The main theme was hearts within hearts. Cherry red escaped me. There was a tiny black heart and I was searching for the right fabric to layer over it...lace or polka dots to the touch -almost like brraille, maybe ribbons.

Huge Turqoise Garage + Vintage Cruiser
I wanted to capture this one on film. Technicolour. Vivid.
It was a huge garage, almost like a barn. the wood was painted a lovely shade of blue-green. A retro car was leaving out the huge door. Everything was happening in slow motion. When I came back later, the light had changed, the garage was grey.

good read: Sweetness & Light

One of my favourite rituals of late is reading this book with dn.

dream: frozen waterfall

Apologies for the delay in posts, I have been distracted with another project. Need your analysis on a recent dream, as it was strange. i dreamed I was doing these kind of slides, to music down a frozen waterfall with my sister in the back yard of my parent's house. The different routes were surprizingly slow, easy and fun, beautiful even. Controlled.

good find: The Fall

good find: advanced style

i think this web site reminded me of my own personal style icon. she was an artist who recognized art everywhere. she was fiercely independent and very private. she reinvented herself many times and never let the goons have the last word. she always held her head high.

lovely september

september can be the nicest one, weather-wise. i always love the back to school feel in the air. today i am bursting at the seams with hope and happiness because i am booked for a promising new treatment. Fingers crossed.

dream: sometimes a cigar is just a cigar

I had to capture this one because the dream book says that it is a symbol of good luck and prosperity. Whohoo! The man who gave me the cigar was a character himself; a Native witch doctor who thought cigar smoking would enhance my creative writing. I remember wearing another fabulous chinese silk robe and a pink one piece swim suit. Love the wardrobe choices in my dream life.

dream: the understudy

once again, the patterns drawn in my dreams have lingered in my waking life. in this dream i was alternating between a role as an understudy in a play and rehearsing in a dance troop. i remember wearing a lush silk chinese robe and having to ad-lib in both venues. all the characters were women from different chapters of my life. strange.

dream: vintage jewellery

I am not typically a girly girl who shops with pals. I think that is what makes this dream stand out. I was with a dear friend in a fabulous vintage jewellery shop. She was wearing a necklace made of real over-sized roses. I seemed to be designing on the fly, decided it was all about finding a pattern that fit my scale...not over-sized but not too intricate or boring. My mind seemed to love designing different necklaces made of pearls, silver, and special stones. I was walking too and thought to myself -- it is amazing that I am not tired or falling, who-hoo! a good omen.

dream: independence day special

i was applying to school in nyc, independent studies. i was making it up along the way, of course. course work included leadership, women's studies, a study of great authors with a special case study in puzzle design. curved pieces that could become art even when the puzzle wasn't solved yet.

good find: quote

Even impossible spells I M POSSIBLE
By Pierre ELIAS

lost & found again: fortune leaf

we found an old journal of mine with tales from rome and italy from when I visited dN in school years ago. there was a leaf with the word fortune on it from the cave of the sybil. it in.spired a poem for my sweetheart's b-day. will post it for the record soon.

"and the fortune teller whispered "This leaf holds many wishes...

she will lead you to bliss, in every shade you can imagine."

good flick: splice

trippy. Sarah Polley and Adrien Brody take us on a deluxe but twisted modern day Frankenstein tale that pushes the boundaries of almost every taboo. the only part that falls flat is their chemistry. still worth a watch.

good flick: exit through the gift shop

A documentary that may or may not be true (but delightful either way) about the barely legal world of street art and the characters that rise to the surface.

good find: quote

"Impossible is just a big word thrown around by small men who find it easier to live in the world they've been given than to explore the power they have to change it. Impossible is not a fact. It's an opinion. Impossible is not a declaration. It's a dare. Impossible is potential. Impossible is temporary. Impossible is nothing."
— Muhammad Ali

stolen: irises

under the cover of darkness, a thief stole past the gate and clipped our iris blooms. strange but true. maybe they thought we wouldn't notice as our yard has a colouring outside the lines quality to it which I love but defies convention. writing its' own script. imagine they could steal our dreams too?

i am in your pocket

imagine a lucky stone or charm that you carry with you everywhere you go, you reach down to touch it for comfort, reassurance, an extra bit of luck and more. an oasis of goodness. understanding. acceptance. strength. calm. in.spire. belief in you that cannot be shaken.

doppelganger

strange but true. last friday I got mail from the HR person at an agency I have had contact with but never worked with -- thanking me for accepting their offer and making start date arrangements. The mail even started with my name in the greeting. Only trouble was that it must have been my doppelganger, because until that moment I had not been aware of a job offer and had no start date plans. bizarro. It's like I saw a window into a parallel universe for just a moment. maybe it was just a mercury retrograde hiccup.

write your own script

write your own script is my way of saying do your own thing. it applies to so much. It feels like the world has this prescription for how life should be lived and it is nailed down to specifics, if you look closely. appreciate your mother now. we even have a script for how motherhood, marriages, friendship and more should be realized. christmas works like this. feel this. do that. everyone is paying attention to this NOW so get on board. all of that just feels like noise. it feels so liberating to write your own script, to live at your own pace and make your own path as you go.

in.bloom

photo courtesy of ruby

beauty is everywhere at the moment. leaves are filling in winter's skeletons. tulips sing spring alive. gathering my own strength too, inspired by ancient divine.

good find: buke & gass

defies type, and oh so good. deluxe noise. they rock.

birds with a unique soundtrack

dN spotted some birds sneaking into our attic from a crack outside. he decided to leave an old ghetto blaster on up there to see if the music and chatter scares them away. we will see if this does the trick. we have new musical guests i suppose.

my life as frenchie

it's no secret I have not been a fan of fakebook. i have held out on the hype for what feels like forever. but, recently i needed an account for a project at work. the only way, in my mind, was to go undercover. i am now estelle sleuth (a.k.a frenchie). if you read the blog you are in the circle so if you want to share photos of your kids and such i will be your friend. kids seem immune to the fakebook rules somehow, i applaud those who can live out loud so bravely. really. show me i am a fool for missing out. i may invent a life for frenchie as a creative project, seems fitting for fakebook. don't hate me please, this is just my way of making peace with things. hopefully you can see the funny here.

good find: cold souls

is your soul weighing you down? imagine a world where you could extract and store a troubled soul or even try on the soul of a russian poet. what does your soul look and feel like? this flick is worth a watch.

fire at daybreak

no foolin' this morning we awoke to sirens and smoke. not in house thankfully but across the alleyway. one street over, a small apartment building went up in smoke. the real smoke monster. a reminder that life is a gift.

dreams: recycled road signs + rulers

maybe recording my dreams is changing me. i have a good theory about this one, but of course my sisters' views are always welcome. i dreamed I made an art project out of converting old road signs into bookends. i cut the danger sign down to size to prop up my books. i think this is warning me to take care of myself as I work on this fun but deadline driven writing project I have on at the moment. the next dream was about cleaning up a desk. I kept finding rulers of all shapes and sizes, hidden among the pages and clutter. mundane I suppose but telling I think. need to ponder on that one a bit. ideas welcome.

earth hour

how did you spend earth hour this weekend? we spent the hour reading this book by candlelight. lovely. no opera from the muse but a virtual vacation and I don't even drink wine! she is a great writer.

live in the land of oars

sometimes you are your own best guru.

i rediscovered this wisdom and find it is on my mind a lot. god grant me the strength to change the things I can. the courage to accept the things I can not change and the wisdom to know the difference. friday was a low but this reminder helped to turn things right again.

dreams: birds + apples

i'm back. so many posts to catch up on. last night i had a dream that this predator bird (black) was about to eat this tiny robin. the robin almost accepted her fate and at the last second, when she was in his mouth, she used her beak to attack the predator bird in the eyes, and she was free. awhile ago, i had a dream that eldest sisters (me) weren't allowed to eat apples. so many "sisters" rolled apples across a field secretly to me. it was all about secretly getting me the apples i needed. the sisterhood of the travelling apples. both dreams seemed like good signs. what do you think?

good find: bridget

the last two episodes of tapestry have inspired me lately. celtic rituals are fascinating. poetic. here's to celebrating the Irish mind, holding two thinks at the same time. heal, baby heal.

good find: dreams revealed

a friend sent this and of course i'm addicted. dreams, they do make us wonder.

good find: local: spacing

s p a c i n g. now online.

dream: hats + lockers

had a dream i was back in the land of highschool lockers, i had two of them and two hats. left an unflattering photo of myself with magnets in some boy's locker. silly!

good find: around the world 1930s style

my favourite cyclist in.spired this trip around the world.

white tiger

this is the year, to prowl, to bravely wear your stripes on your sleeve, to reinvent and re-build. yes.we.can.

s.w.a.k.

sealed with a kiss. a dear friend sent inspiration by post and it arrived today. how deluxe! we used to send marathon pen pal letters to each other as teens and we always sealed the envelop that way. pen pals. with instant messager, fakebook and twitter pen pals probably don't exist anymore. (she laments ironically on her blog) charm had a moment in s.w.a.k.

art.i.choke

when you break it up that way, it is no wonder we aren't fans of the vegetable.

in.spire: connect the dots

stay foolish. stay hungry.

dream: curls

dreamed of curling my hair last night. the dream book fortells romance. oh la la!

dreams: water, glass pyramid + big church

on new year's eve, i dreamed about drinking many glasses of water. ( i wasn't dehyrated from alcohol.) suppposedly, it is a sign of good luck. a few nights ago i dreamed i was in university again and one of the dorm rooms had this glass pyramid in the corner, sort of a crystal with these uneven opaque shards of glass. i remember 3 creating the pyramid and it was irresistible, i had to touch it. of, course i thought, makes perfect sense. lastly, i had a dream about this larger than life adobe church. it was terra cotta and on a hill in the back yard. i never went inside.

what do you make of all these symbols?

good find: inHarmony

thanks to my latest follower, I have recently discovered this site. guilty pleasure, but it feels right.

good find: a mixed tape for the universe

what's been inspiring you this year? radio lab is among my new favourite sources of brain candy. there's an old episode about space that got me thinking. if i was going to send a space capsule into the great beyond, here's what I'd include:

the chime of a tibetan singing bowl
a child's laugh
good soulful gospel music
an e.e. cummings poem
i have a dream speech by martin luther


what would your mixed tape sound like?

time

we play this game in the morning, where we take turns guessing the time. monday i guessed 8:24 and i was exactly right. i guess, for a moment i had the time. or maybe, it had me.

happiness

happy new year! ruby reminded me yesterday of this pearl of wisdom:

happiness is the journey.

it doesn't have to be the destination, something we are always striving for but never arriving at. perfectly imperfect. gratitude.